I am a woman who schemes in epic fashion. It's not good enough for our family to find a new church. We need to enroll the girls in AWANA and take the kids to Sunday School & enroll in a class for adults and I need to teach AWANA. It's not good enough for us to simply move to an awesome new neighborhood, I need to enroll the girls in dance and basketball and COACH basketball and become great friends with our next door neighbor and then make plans for her to watch our kids after school and then.... you get the idea. It's an achilles heal if ever there was one. It drives my husband crazy.
Well, tonight a switch was flipped in my brain. It happened as my 7 year old and I walked into our 6:00 basketball game at 7:15. Me - the coach - walked into our game as the two teams were shaking hands. My assistant coach had to coach all by herself (I'm fairly certain she has been traumatized) and my players were looking at me with this look on their face. Astonishment? Surprise? JUDGEMENT?!! No.
It was right then and there - looking at the faces of my players - that I realized what a disservice I am doing to those I serve on this earth. Rather than giving 100% of myself to a few select things that I am passionate about, I am throwing small pieces of myself all over the place in an effort to cover as much ground as possible. Quantity over Quality. More is more.
I am so thankful for having learned this lesson tonight! It has shown me where I need to pare back my life and what things are truly worthy of my entire being. Now the hard part of separating from the things that are NOT going to make the cut. Ew.
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