Frazzled

Me. 

This weekend was one of those that felt like #1. I was trapped in it forever, and #2. We will never get out of this season we're in with our family!! Kids fighting, neighborhood drama, toddlers whining, housework, not enough sleep, being fat & out of shape, work.... it feels like this is the merry go round that I am destined to ride for the rest of my natural (I hope it's just natural... I think by the time I reach the hereafter, I will have earned a break!) life. It makes me have to push it out of my mind so that I can go on. Kind of like after you've had a baby - your brain tricks you into remembering the magical rainbow & pony portion of the birth and newborn stage and not the painful, gross, terrible parts. If our brains didn't do this, I'm fairly certain the human race would cease to exist in a relatively short period of time. I'm a super fun bowl of cheer tonight, eh?

On the other side of the coin is this awesome teammate I get to go through life with. My hubby. He seriously is a saint. I'm convinced. He is my rock, my sounding board, my safety net and my love. He endures my crazy ideas and hopeless optimism and undying (ANNOYING, no doubt) pursuit of the greater good. Make blankets for a shelter - but then never actually deliver said blankets? No problem. Take a scary new job and then realize it is much tougher than I ever dreamed possible and have to listen to me threaten to become a shoe salesman? No worries. He's seriously the MOST patient person on. the. planet.

So, while I feel like sometimes our life is someone's cruel joke and that surely God is sitting up in heaven, eating popcorn and getting a good laugh as John and I chase around after the kids and work up a sweat wresting a 2 year old into his pajama's or making up RI-DIC-U-LOUS potty songs, at the end of the day, we are incredibly blessed. It's a thought process I need to go through to get from the lady at the top of the page, to the lady here at the bottom of the page. Relaxed. Poised. Confident. Ready to deal with what I know will be continued craziness until the next time I need to talk myself down off the ledge!!

Makes ya wanna run out and have a bunch of the little critters, doesn't it?!